Her smile :)

Today, I'm feeling blue.. kinda emo if you ask me :( And when I’m feeling blue, I just look into my wallet and look for the one thing that will make me smile. The photo of my daughter. That old picture of her when she was just 3 months old, wherein she won first place in a photo contest and bagged PhP10,000++ cash. Proud mama here. (See pics above. :) ) Well, the white part of the photo is a dingy off-white now, and the corner on the left is peeling off but every bit of it is perfect. Now I try to picture her, her toothy smile and when she smiles, it brightens my day. I might roll my eyes at her or tell her, “Behave! It's not funny!” But underneath it all, I abso-freakin-lutely adore her smile and I'm quite amazed of how she puts a smile on my face even on the most bleakest of days. I also love the sound of her laughter when I tickle her. When she laughs, she makes the whole world smile. She is the only one who has the power to make me happy and bring me up when I’m really down. Whenever my day needs to be brightened, she’s the one I turn to. I love seeing her dance and sing and how when it’s time for bed she says "Love you mommy. Good night," and we snuggle up in the chill of the evening while I scratch her back till we both fall asleep. I'd love to come home to her running toward me to give me a big hug and a sweet kiss. It would be like a nice, deep penetrating foot massage after a long, hard day's work. :)

And here's the photo we took in Bohol last year where we won Php 25,000 worth shopping spree from Zara in Heaven Ice Cream‘s Heaven on Earth photo contest. Isn't it amazing?

"This is my heaven on earth! I enjoy having HEAVEN ice cream with my angel, Maia, who must have taken a day off in heaven to enjoy a cup of divine ice cream pleasure with me on a hot, sunny day at the beach. My own piece of heaven that is too good to even dream about.

Btw, here's the photo I took where I won an all-expense paid trip to Boracay from Smart's extraodinary summer photo contest. We went to Boracay last Holy week and last June with my daughter, Maia. :)

Just now. I miss her smile and it sucks not to see her smile today. I miss her. =(

If there's one thing that brightens my day, it would be my daughter's smile, my Maia Chanelle's smile. There’s not a day that goes by that she can’t make me smile. Whenever I’m mad, stressed, upset or just feeling down, she’s always the first one who can clear my mind and make all my problems go away. I always wonder how something so tiny, so simple can make me the happiest person in the world. It’s amazing how she knows just what to do when I’m in a bad mood. Even if she’s done something wrong and I’ve told her “No, stop it,” she does her little ba-donky-donk dance and flashes that wicked smile that makes me laugh when I should be mad. And now that I'm missing her so bad because I get used to seeing her everyday, I just look at her picture. Then I get in the mindset that I can do it, I can do the impossible. I'd do everything for her. She is the reason I’m working my arse off, waking up every 3ish in the morning to go to work cause I know this is for my daughter and I'd do whatever it takes for my daughter to have a better life.
Despite the fact that I'm not a morning person and I don't have any call center experience, I do have a good head on my shoulders. Since I can't find a job online, I decided to apply for a call center job because of obvious reasons. And I'm so glad I managed to pass my first try on applying in a call center even if I don't even know how a mock call works. If it wasn’t for my daughter, I can honestly say I would not be the person I am today. I know I would not pass it if it's not for her. Simply put, I know I passed because I have an inspiration. I even remember the interviewer asked me who or what would be my inspiration to go to work everyday and I answered without batting an eyelash.. it's my daughter! Hallleerrr! That was the easiest question ever! LOL

She is my everything, my blessing from God. She is my pride and joy and there’s not a day that goes by that I’m not thankful for this blessing. Ever since she was brought into my life, I’ve never been happier. I can honestly see the future in my daughter’s eyes, what I am and who I’ll be.

That said, I can't wait for the weekend to see her again... her sweet, toothy smile. :)

I love you bebe..